I was pregnant for about nine weeks…………….and then I wasn’t.
I tried to be very strong. I wanted to be ready to try
again. My body has other plans. I miscarried around my husband’s birthday, July
28th, 2013. Here we are now, October 1st, 2013 and I
still have the human growth hormone (HGC). I have about six blood tests, two menstrual
cycles and still show traces, and therefore may not ovulate. I have been told to
use birth control although that seems counterproductive, and a waste of money.
So here we are just waiting. We were so excited to get pregnant and under such difficult circumstances. But when will we get the opportunity to try again? It is going on nine weeks since the miscarriage. Maybe this is normal? My OB/GYN is not giving me answers. But the babies and families are their main concern. That’s the gratifying part of their job. I can’t hold it against them. Pregnant women have that “glow”, watching the parent’s reaction as they see their child growing from an embryo to full term, the moment of birth. A middle aged hormonal woman who has given herself stretch marks with the help of one to many chocolates isn’t very exciting.
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2013-2013
